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Tuesday, January 31, 2012 @ 9:59 PM
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原来, 朋友始终逃不了过客的命运。


First day in Aj:

yes.
i'm like half-dead now.
first day, and i'm so stressed already.
come on.

my heart's pounding wildly right now idk why.
i hope i can really pull through all that 2 years seriously.

it's only the first day and i'm missing people like hell.
brilliant.

and i've got like, 2 years to continue missing them.

yes.
and hopefully, i really hope my choice is right.
i need some peace to think now, but i really can't find the peace i want.

yes.
i'm scared.
like, really scared.
not to even mention, worried.


with all the unfamiliarity, stress, and all the missing and stuff, i'm starting to wonder if i can pull through these 2 years...

Monday, January 30, 2012 @ 2:33 PM
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It's a wrong move to be happy actually. My mistake.

Saturday, January 28, 2012 @ 11:23 PM
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Suddenly I have no idea why, but I feel that I'm really gonna miss 147...

@ 11:21 PM
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Hmm. I think I'd better start to get my fingers moving.

Wednesday, January 25, 2012 @ 4:43 PM
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I'm back haha!(:

shall post bout my trip this year.



Chinese New Year Eve's Eve:

surprisingly there wasn't much of a jam so we managed to reach my popo house around 4 plus.
turned out that my popo and all the adults went out for their tea break haha. only 4 kids were left behind.


hmm. maybe it's because we hardly see each other much in a year...
i mean, even with my spore cousin as well( from my father's side)...
Can't help with all the awkwardness there...

haha. but luckily, after a while they came over to talk to me. lol.
okay. they're both younger than me(around my bro's age).
LOL.

dk why but we started talking and soon we found ourselves laughing so much that both my cousins teared. haha. ok, i contributed quite a lot to the laughter.


well. they're fun haha.

guess that's the main thing i can rmb about the first day apart from helping out to put up the decorations. haha.


i helped with the first floor while the other adults did the 2nd floor. haha. kind of fun.
well, apart from the fact that i wasn't able to sleep at all thanks to the stuffy feeling i felt from cramping in that uninhibited small room for one night...


plus, 小黑 kept on barking throughout the whole night too...):




Chinese New Year's Eve:

what did i do today lol?
nth much i think, apart from going online, talking etc...

the kids gambled at night after much pestering done to my youngest aunt.
haha. i mean, kids around my bro's age, apart from guoliang and tingting.
haha.

wasn't really much into gambling actually.


haha. but the coolest thing was that we skyped with my cousins who are living in korea now!!!

haha. the two little guys are just so cute omg!!!


i love kyan and kayden!!!(:

haha. but poor little kayden had a fever so he was resting...


haha. then kyan saw that the kids were playing cards and he immediately went to take his piggybank and tried to shake out all his money inside! CUTE RIGHT?!


haha. all of us were laughing at his cuteness. haha. then in the end, he played tgt with the kids through the ipad! haha. and he's 7 only i think...


haha.


cute yeah?(:
lol. this is kyan trying on a hanbok(:



and his younger brother, kayden!(:


haha. and the two of them at a photo shoot.



haha. 
miss them omg. i think it's been a year plus since i last saw them, was it?
poor memory...:/



1st day of Chinese New Year:

headed over to the temple near my popo's house to pay our respects to my tai-po.
haha. it's an every year thing.

gosh. it was super hot omg.

the temperature that day was like 36 degree celsius!!!

yest's was 35!!!:/

felt as though i was going to be barbecued LOL.

good thing it did rained in the afternoon.

rain as in those heavy kind haha. luckily^^

played rummikub, which is what my father called it,"the children's mahjong".
haha. fun omg!

have to use your brain to think a lot for this game.

haha. can't believe that i'd actually won my father and my bro who have been playing for quite some time already, when it's only my first time playing after learning the basics.


HAHA.

forgotten how many times we played that but yeah, it was fun!

haha. 

the children kept pestering my youngest aunt to be the banker and play cards again. lol.
this time round, i joined for fun.
haha.

then when she had to go and discuss her building plans for her own house with my oldest uncle, my oldest uncle's son, guoliang took over as the banker.


okay.

he's only 13, younger than me, but he said he wanted to be.
lol. okay. by right i should be since i'm the oldest one playing, but well, i don't have much ringgit with me since i'm not a malaysian so i can't afford to be one...


haha.

bet i kept winning lol.

i mean, i kept getting 21 points.
and it's like, even when i have already drawn 4 cards, i didn't exceed 21 points but on the dot.
lol. jiaqian kept wanting to kill me for my good luck haha.

we all went to ktv at night. first time ever!!!

haha. almost 30 ppl went. we booked a huge room and sang from 7 plus to almost 1am. LOL. super fun!!! haha.


so tired after that.


2nd Day:

nth much going on today...

so we headed home around 1plus...

not much of a jam again..

haha.
so cool exploring the tuas checkpoint. the lorry passport checking place. haha. so big and we had to clear a lot of obstacles.


thank goodness i don't drive/nor plan to be a lorry driver LOL.

haha.



that's it i guess..

sad that we didn't put off fireworks this year...

i love fireworks...
it always brings back a nostalgic feeling for me...
and i'll always find myself being overwhelmed with feelings.

haha.
and i'll feel as though i'm the little kid back then again.



Saturday, January 21, 2012 @ 10:12 AM
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okay. i happened to be online now for some reasons, so i'm just coming here to crap.


gonna go offline in 2 mins time from now...

got to go and pack my clothing for the next 3 days.

zzz. if not i'm gonna have nth to wear LOL.

hmm. shall see my mood and take out all those clothes that go along with it from my wardrobe.

zzz.

packing gives me a feeling that i'll be gone for a long time.

haish.

speaking of which, there are plans to send me abroad to study for a year or so after i've completed my university.

yes, study chinese.

i'm not really against it.

i mean, i've been to beijing before, and i really love chinese.

haha.

maybe its just that i'm scared to go there all alone.

its like, u'll be all alone in this whole big city for a year or so.

zzz.
if i really go, i bet i'll miss everyone like crazy.

but oh well, that's still like, 6 years away.

6 years to make up my mind.
it'll definitely be more than enough.

but more or less, i think i'll be giving it a try.

haha. as i'm typing this, i just received an SMS from my dear felicia!

she's FINALLY BACK FROM BALI OMG!

just as well.
i can plan an outing with her now before i leave^^

whee.
kind of just "chased" her off for some rest given that she did not sleep on the plane...

i hate sleeping on planes LOL.

i'd rather spend my time staring out of the plane window.
more of my style(:

okay. guess i'd better go now.

OMG.

i'll have to remind myself to walk all the way to the post office later to post a mail...
omg...
zzz. why so hot now? ):

whatever. i shall go do my packing first, like now.

HAPPY CNY TO ALL!:D



Friday, January 20, 2012 @ 9:56 PM
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away till next tues from tmr afternoon.

haish.

boring period again plus i really hate jams u know?

am so gonna bring my storybook with me.

zzz.

bye for now i guess.

it'll be either next tues night or wed when i'll probably post again.

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Thursday, 19.01.2012




A day when all the movies that ahgong, meiqian and i wanted to watch came out all together...haha!

went out to cycle at east coast with mingxuan, char!

haha. mingxuan looks different haha!(:

whee!

it was really sunny there when we finally managed to reach east coast haha! i shall not say too much here haha, but it was really funny...xP

haha. i hate the cabbie who drove us there man..
so rude and meanie la.

zzz.=.=

felt like...giving him a punch. hmph.

well. but heck cared bout that uncle man.
zzz.

rented our bicycles and went to macs haha. i love that spot up there on the 2nd floor. haha. good place for talking man.

we kept cycling after that haha.

like we were trying to help mingxuan get back her cycling feel so that she can go faster hahaha. funny process but well, how FUN IT WAS!!!

i love the bedok jetty!!!
haha.

i love seeing how aeroplanes would fly above me.
catching aeroplanes!

haha.

真的真的好喜欢哦。。。

蓝蓝的天空,配着白白的朵朵云儿,偶尔还有一架架飞机来作伴。。。
好美哦。

haha. we took pictures there haha.
i love the glittering sea and the blue sky.

omg i just love the beach.

haha. when i was young, i used to wonder, "how nice would it be if i could have my house right next to the beach?"

haish. standing there, all three of us, i was really overwhelmed with emotions then as we stared down at the sea...

haha. i wondered, how we would all be like, ten years down the road?

etc...


也感叹着,我们各自就要分开了。。。
各自将会踏入不同的花花世界里。。。

变化,是难免的。
但是,多大的变化则是一个谜。
让人猜不透,也摸不着头绪。

避免,更是无法的事。
更别说分开。。。


haha. say i'm thinking too much again, but 那也是因为,我真的很舍不得。。。



we cycled for very long and mingxuan was really cute like she always is.
haha.

her motivation for cycling faster in the end was her vanilla milkshake!

haha. but it turned out that there was none left...

haha. she was really sad but we can't help it...

mx and i ordered a couple drink in the end!

haha. it was a new drink McCafe came up with but i found my chocolate one too sweet...
argh.

i hate really sweet stuff.
makes me feel so... 腻...:/

went back after returning our bikes cause mx need to rush for her steamboat dinner.

poor thing...
she fell asleep on the bus...

guess we were all kind of tired after being in the sun for the whole afternoon...

pei-ed char for her dinner at farrer.
haha. i really am gonna miss all these times together.

honestly, and seriously.

i could never find someone who knows me that well like her.
someone whom i can really trust all my secrets with.

no one but my beloved. haha.

beloved, if u see this, don't get too touched hor!:P

haha!
hmm. i can't believe that i even entertained those silly thoughts in my head.

maybe i should stop being so paranoid and not think so much.

but whatever it is,
these two days, are times i'm gonna miss in the near future.


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Wednesday, 18.01.2012.


Went out with Ah gong and Meiqian! wah. it's been a really long time since i last saw them...
haha. I really do miss them omg!!!

Haha. But the funny thing with me is that, I don't actually realise how much I really missed someone until I see them. haha.

hmm. we went to bugis, illuma to buy our movie tickets first.

haha. well... we spent like at least half an hour staring at the movie posters and deciding which movie to watch.

haha. we decided to use our scissors-paper-stone method to settle it all lol. HAHA!:D

well. i really miss all those times tgt! haha!:D

me love my beloved char, dearest ahgong, dearest meiqian, dearest mingxuan and my dearest yiran!!!:D

hmm. in the end we decided to watch 那些年,我们一起追的女孩 again. lol. yes, we've all watched it once before.


haha. wah. like we all 3 v.suibian people get tgt, it's a catastrophic thing lol. it's like, we can't decide what to do next, where to go, and even what to eat lol.

haha.

finally decided to go to manhattan fish market to settle our lunch after buying our movie ticket. haha. omg!

i like their cheese fries even though it went uneaten in the end...( well, we ordered two fish n chips is it what its called?o.0 and we got so full that we decided to bring it into the cinema...but we were so engrossed in watching the movie that it went uneaten...haha!)

hmm. right. but the best part of our lunch was the catching-up part, plus the superb drinks we ordered!!!

okay. maybe i should have ordered a tropical breeze instead LOL.

my citrus mint was so minty and a tad too sour that i was so happy the moment i've finished it!:D hahaha!

our drinks are really cool omg! the pics are with ahgong so i can't post them here...
but they're ex la, but oh well! It's not that u drink such expensive drinks that often right?(:

haha. so my drink was a light green coloured one, cheryl's a white coloured one, while meiqian's a dark blue-coloured one.

omg. HAH. AND I'M REMINDED OF HOW I KEPT MAKING THE TWO OF THEM SPEECHLESS^^ HAHA. meow's finally capable of that yo!xD

haha. hmm. realised that  we've still got 50 mins or so before the movie starts, so we decided to go take neoprints haha! hmm. i realised that for our clique, i've like introduced neoprints to char, cheryl and meiqian haha! like, i'm their first partner when they had their first neoprint experiences HAHA! but neoprints are nice lor! i mean, we were shocked at how pretty(LOL.) we looked at the outcome. HAHA! NICE!:D

hmm. even though we all watched 那些年 before, we can't help but agree that it's really damn nice omg.

haha. i've had a deeper understanding after watching it for the 2nd time...

plus 更多感触。。。

haha. i like!!!:D

zzz. strumming my heartsrings totally!

haha. movie ended, we all wandered around thinking of what to do again LOL. then we all wanted to take neo again(oh did i mention that one will get addicted to it easily?)

haha. but sadly, the 2nd time outcome wasn't as nice as the first...):

haish.

well.

headed home after that to help my mum to pick up some groceries for our pasta feast the next night.

haha. guess that although we engaged ourselves in only simple activities, it was the laughter and catching up that we had, that was worthwhile in the end.

to put it simply,

i love u guys a lot!(:


cheesy, but yeah!:D


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原地踏步; 但这一次,我已经渐渐的离你远去了。

Tuesday, January 17, 2012 @ 10:08 PM
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I'm scared that one day, we'll really become complete strangers.

@ 10:52 AM
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Zzz. Forget it. Treat it like I've never asked u anything.

Tuesday, January 10, 2012 @ 4:07 PM
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Forgive me for that. But I'm still trying to convince myself.

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It's funny how I had a lot going through my mind before I came online. But the moment I came, i realised that I've no idea what to say.


Yeah. Thanks for all the comfort I received.
I know it's an embarrassing thing to cry in front of so many people.
Yes. Obviously I know, thank you.
But I didn't want that either, do I?


If u were me, the moment u saw ur results, especially when the other subjects were okay, there's one result down there in front of you, that's the most obvious of them all.


Right. What else but Humanities?


Nothing but disappointment. 
It's not that I didn't work hard for that. 
I've tried.
But look at the ending. I'm still getting results I shouldn't be getting.


Come on. 
It's not like its a B3 okay.


It's a damn C5. 
yeah. tell me about it.


tell me how not to be sad when one bloody subject is taking like almost half of my L1R5.


i know i should be more forward-looking, and not look back anymore.
But let me tell you now, I can't okay?




It's not that I didn't try.
I did, but now and then, I'll often be reminded of my bloody results.


And you thought u knew me well.
But in fact, you don't.


U don't know how it feels like trying to keep up with a pretence in front of you.
It's getting really suffocating, that here I am trying to act as though I'm really okay.


But in fact, I'm not.


Well. u fell for my pretence, didn't you?


At least, that's a comforting thought. But it still sucks to know that you can't see through it.


I know right from yesterday, we'll be going into two different worlds.
To be honest, I don't want it.


Hah. But what can I do?
Nothing but to move on with time helplessly.


Everyone's achieved remarkable results. Not me.


Yes. People said that I should be getting at least a 4 or 5 after deduction. 
Yeah. Look at me now.


Maybe it might be better if we all go on our separate ways...


I really wonder how long more can I keep this going.
I'm losing reign over it.


As each second passes, I'm finding it even harder to hang in there.




Sunday, January 8, 2012 @ 12:04 PM
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SAVE ME omg!!! I can't believe tmr's coming so fast... And I still have yet to prepare myself for that. Lol. Maybe I won't even be able to live past today, for my heart was already beating super fast the first thing when I woke up. Lol. High aortic pressure for my aorta omg! Seriously. Time's passing too fast just when I'm starting to enjoy the holidays... Good times will always pass faster than bad times... Seriously. I really need a lot of stuff to distract me now. Tmr. Tmr I'll confirm be trembling when I go and receive my result slip. Wonderful. Pray that I won't disappoint everyone. Teachers-wise, ESP mrs Chang... Met her yesterday at Clementi mall and her eyes said it all. And I really hope that I can achieve what I wanted. Wish me all the best of luck. Someone, anyone, please take away the nervousness and worry inside of me. Okay. I admit, I'm really afraid right now.

Friday, January 6, 2012 @ 9:23 PM
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Hmm. I wonder what will it be like if i can have a wall filled with photos of my family, friends, memories etc etc. Guess that will be nice(:




Had fun today despite feeling kind of lethargic...
But still, seeing the smile on beloved's face when she opened the present was sufficient enough for me to not care about my tiredness... 


at least i knew that i've made her happy with all that i've done. it's good enough to know that.




For tmr, i guess it'll be quite a day for me...


meeting Felicia at 9.30 am at clementi tmr, and we're going to head back to NanHua for CCA ex...
when it ends at 1pm, i'll probably help my juniors to pack up, and restoring the soil to how it was before they did the turfing for the outdoor cooking and etc.


may not eat lunch but head straight to NP for their open house.


it'll last till around 6pm, and i'll have to chiong all the way to Yio Chu Kang to attend my cousin's birthday party at 6.30pm. Hope I can make it in time though.


And it'll last all the way till maybe 11, so haha. kind of tiring but yeah. at least i won't keep feeling so nervous at the thought of 9 jan.:/


speaking of which, i'd better go wrap his present now and rmb to bring it out tmr. if not, everything's going to be so not-wonderful.




Later then i guess, i'll probably come here again either on sunday if i'm still alive, that is, if i don't die from nervousness.  yeah. or it'll be after results day.




Wish me the best of luck. I'll need all the luck I can get. 




Tuesday, January 3, 2012 @ 8:58 PM
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okay. i made a really terrible mistake in my previous post.

2 years ago, i was still in beijing, anticipating 2011 and not at home watching the tv for the broadcast. LOL.

silly old me.

hmm. this year's bsc sounds like real fun too.

am going to find out more about it from zihui when she's back!(:
since i'll probably return to NanHua again for Guides during the 2nd week.

i seriously need to do some catching up.
feeling as though i'm losing touch and connection with them. and i hate to find myself seeing that become a harsh reality.
so, i'm going to spend my fridays in Guides. hopefully. i can find back some memories which i find myself losing every second.


re-finding memories(: