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10 more days(:
i'll be fifteen.

dk why but i feel super happy today.
well, at least i know that u still care for me.
(:

love you babe!!xDD


yay!!
i've finally managed to find people who's one day older and younger than me le!!
hahas.
and fione and i are both born on 8 May 1995!!
whee!!

today then we all know lehhs.
hahas.
but at least now i know le(:(:(:

hehehes.

today in comp lab during chinese, wenzhe made me laugh so much lorhhs.
lol!
his article damn funny sia!

"yes no yes?"

HAHAHAHAS.!!

lol.
the walk to the mrt station today after guides was super funny too.
hahas.
epic.
unforgettable.

we were like xiaozhabors.
esp me and sweeting.
today dk what happened to us le.
hahahas.
laughed at our own jokes.
then i imitated the bus slogan
and i successfully made everyone laugh!!

HAHAHAS.
today was a funny day.
hahahas.

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dunno why, but i'm hurting inside right now.

we aren't the way we used to be anymore.

nowadays, u'l always give me that nonchalant look and ignore me.
its not that i've never tried to talk to you.
but u just simply dao me.

to be simple, u're even harder to communicate with right now.
u're no longer the agnes chua that i used to know.

its like, why have we both turned out this way?
if i have any faults or smth, tell me.
i'll change.

trust me.
i'll do whatever it takes for us to be back to square one.

seriously.
i do miss the times we had everything under the sun to talk about.
i miss the times when we quarrel.
at least, quarreling is better than speaking nothing, isnt it?

all that's left inside of us are nothing but empty shells.
i dont want this; i want us both with our souls there.

can we?
perhaps,

perhaps this will be my 15th birthday wish this year.
im entitled to 3, arent i?


i cant go on anymore le.
call me a crybaby or whatever.

coz i know that if i continue to go on,
i'll be tearing all over again.
-and it'll be endless, trust me.


many a times i've cried myself to sleep.
all because of my endless tears ; they just wouldn't stop no matter what.

seriously, my dearest 老公，
i really miss us being together.

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super irritating can?
just managed to find my badges...X.X

thanks a lot.~~

a bit pissed off now.
wtf.



still waiting for my medicine to take effect.
but apparently, im more awake right now.
prob due to the anger im feeling?


what-the-shit.
i've got tons of hw and projects on my hand.
dk hw to finish lahhs.
dumb ass.
still got the sky proj...
eng oral proj..
guides stuff to handle.

hw?
tests?
M.Y.E???


it'll already be a miracle if i dont land myself in woodbridge.
and im not being funny here.
i think im gonna go deaf first.
ears are super weird.
thanks a lot to u ppl.

for shouting in my ears...
=.=

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ahhhs gosh. help.

todae's bio spa sucks like hell lahhs.
enter the bio lab the whole place like smells of shit or even vomit...
-made me feel like puking many times thruout the practical...

was already feeling unwell because of my flu, cough and sore throat le..
then the bio practical made me feel even worse.
X.X

stayed back for both recess and lunch to study geog.
geog test was during lunch.

hmm, think its quite okayy lahhs
if i can do well i'll be very happy le.

but mostly likely can pass de.
coz i did study as always.
then its quite easy lahhs, as in the tested chapters de content-wise.


whoa..
xian
was busy chionging one of my taiwan trip post-report -like stuff...
took super long to finish doing man
didnt even do today's hw lahhs.
haish.
tmr during recess must chiong le.

xian
haven do chem
haven do cep ws de 1 question
haven even pasted/attached the jianbao article(think i'll forget it le. lazy paste aniwaes.~~）
haven do eng.
haven do maths.
haven wrap noreen's present.
haven do my badge prep work yet...
darn it..

all by tmr lehhs...
except for my badge stuff which is due only on wed..

and shit!!
wed's my promotion test le.
Z.Z

die.



shit and my sore throat worsened le lahhs.
what a dumb ass i've been today...X.X
=.=
i'd actually forgotten that i wasn't supposed to eat any heaty stuff that would worsen my sore throat.
to think that i even ate chocolate waffles!!!


waa...

i am slowly becoming Rudolph le..)":

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and my hand's bleeding ;

just like my heart.

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DIE.

my flu and cough worsened.X.X
haish.

have been totally slacking for whole of this afternoon and the whole of yesterday as well...X.X

haish.
cnt find the motivation to do.
muz chiong geog tmr le.

maths and geog tests on mon..

haish.

going out to orchard later and also to sim lim square with my family.
need to go get some things from there as well.


haish..
HAISH.
HAISH HAISH HAISH.

suddenly feeling a bit emo.
keep listening to that song.

it made me feel like crying.
i just dont know whats wrong with me.



giving up is really hard for me.
i hate it when i have to keep on torturing myself like this..

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i don't want us to separate like this ;
on a day like this, it hurts even more.

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if only my love was that multi-coloured ;

i dont want it to be only black and grey.

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勇敢爱 张靓颖

一个人孤单地降落
拥挤得只剩下寂寞
天晴了风吹的时候
泪水连记忆蒸发了
放开手心才会自由
爱走了不能再拥有
心灰了不会再从头
怎么会就这样错过
连再见都还来不及说
这幸福是那么脆弱
想念我还想念
爱没有终点
虽然你不在身边
天空依然灿烂
我可以期待下一次能勇敢爱
风停了剩尘埃飘落
梦走了谁来叫醒我
曲折你曾陪我度过
给我的比你带走得多
不回头心才会辽阔
想念我还想念
爱没有终点
虽然你不在身边
天空依然灿烂
我可以期待下一次能勇敢爱
你永远不会明白
你错过了我的爱
想念我还想念
爱没有终点
虽然你不在身边
想念那么想念
要多少改变才相信爱已走远
天空依然灿烂
我可以期待下一次能勇敢爱


i just love this song de lyrics.(:

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seriously, i really really want an Eiffel tower necklace for my bdae lorhhs.
idk why.
but i just really want it badly now...

hmm.
have been thinking a lot recently as well.

and u know what, though they told me that they felt the same thing as well,
im still trying to escape, you could say perhaps.

i dont wanna accept the truth-even if that thought has occurred in my mind before.
i just feel kind of...weird?
im not sure if that's the correct word to put it across,
but i just dk..

perhaps im still waiting...

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in relation to my previous post, u hurt me today as well.





bio test todae was manageable.
well, at least i only minus one mark for mcq so far.
thanks to the darn txtbook
which misleaded me into choosing the wrong option.

X.X

oh well.


received an sms from lois todae.
hahas.
she made me feel a bit better.
at least she still rmbs my bdae.

and speaking of my bdae,
im both anticipating but dreadful of it.
coz of the stupid midyear.

i want cry le lahhs.
i've already had enough of mid-years thru the 6 years in pri sch..
why?!!
:"(

i want to have a nice bdae celebration.

gosh...




haish.

oh yeahhs.

and THANKS TO :

-beatrice
-alicia
-yuenleng
-yiran

for being concerned about me yesterday...
hahas.

did i look pale yesterday?
hahasxP

oh well..
thanks for your concern(:
sry if i missed out anyone..

-was feeling very sick yesterday...
didnt eat anything but still, felt like puking yesterday..
hahas.
beat(: kinda told me to go down eat during lunch..
then i kinda forced myself to eat...

X.X

then when i came back home, was so tired that i just fell asleep almost immediately..
just read thru bio once since geog postponed and im kinda done with bio le.
slept earlier yest night as well.

still superr tired even though i already slept in the afternoon..X.X



dk whats wrong with me seriously, but i think its mostly due to lack of sleep plus stress bahhs..X.X


thou im feeling better todae le, im still feeling a bit sick actually.
kinda having a flu and cough...
-plus sore throat and a headache as well?


my head and eyelids have been feeling super heavy for the past few days..



thanks for showing me the concern that i need in times like this.

love you guys.
u made me feel that im being cared for.

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sometimes i'm just trying hard to keep myself in control-i dont wanna spoil our friendship seriously.

idk why..
but please, just stop provoking me anymore.

my patience has a limit.

idk wanna spoil everything that we have right now.

do you like, even get it?




i'm not trying to scold u here or smth.
i just want you to know how i feel.

coz apparently, u just dont.
thats why u kept on hurting me recently.


u just dont know how much im suffering and hurting inside because of u..

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lalalas~~
i wanna make u happy.

i'll try to get u that by hook or by crook!!

hahas.
it'll be a secret that i spent the whole day today searching for ur present..

hmm.
hahas.
no revision done yet for this week...):

a bit worried(hmm, well actually, quite lahhs!):P

but then at least i read thru log(a bit)
and understood physics even better(:

i'm happy with the physics part.

thanks to my father(:


6 april your birthday le.
and i wanna make u the most happiest mummy and person in the world(:


hearts you mummy!!xDDD

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just took a random tarot reading to calm myself down.
didnt expect much from it...
but the results have made me believe it..

coz its like, so true?
its true that im in distress right now.
still pondering over things..
still regaining my confidence bit by bit.

the tarot readings gave me some hope u know.
all of a sudden, i find myself telling the inner me that i can do it if i just persevere on.

at least even if i didnt get what i wanted in the end, i dont have any regrets.

so for next week, im just gonna tell myself to do my best, to enjoy it, and just treat it as my last chance and give it my best shot.

coz i dont wanna have any regrets in my life.

right.
and i'm gonna do that!!

thanks for ur support when i really needed it.
ty!!(:

i'll promise i'll do my best and not let u all down.
thanks for being there for me when im at one of my weakest moment.

hahas. better stop here le.
otherwise i'll just keep on going on and on...
coming up with even more of these...xPP

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finally decided to post again...
had a good chat with yujia(lee) yesterday...
as well as my dearest ah gong.

wanna thank them for cheering me up.
well, special thanks to yujia, ah gong and meiqian !!xDD love u peeps like hell!!
and ty to khang hwee as well.

hmm.
bro's bdae tmr le.
o.0 fast...
he's 9 years old le..:O

oh well. goin out with family to get his present.
lol.
i already bought his le..
so im practically broke now...X.X

hahas.
bought myself a xiao shuo when i bought his present.
hehes.
finished reading that book the night i bought it.
finished another one todae...
so i was like practically slacking this few days...X.X
haven finished all my hw yet man...

arghhs.
come to think of it..
i really did wasted lots on time on irrelevant things...
haish.
tmr still need go out and do the party preparations.
have got lots of things to do.
since im like the one in charge of everything for this year...

gosh.

o.0 and come to think of it...
my bdae's coming le..

though its stuck in the middle of the stupid dumb mid-year...X.X

hmm...

i want an Eiffel tower necklace...
hahahas...

xDDD