hahas. i know. but how do u just prevent oneself from escaping...?
came back home todae and realised that i'm actually having a fever...=.=
i knew that my body temp a bit hotter these few days but i really didnt expect it to be a fever instead...):
haish.
tmr still got flagday cip at plaza sing lehhs...
HOW?
took medication le.. its better a bit.. but then what im afraid that it might get worse in the night...X.X
wahh... now my head's damn heavy...X.X
no wonder... i should have felt that something was wrong with myself when i practically have NO APPETITIE today...(in other words, i didnt eat both breakfast and lunch...only dinner.....)
haish.. tmr celebration for shannon's bdae.. then going to meet at plaza sing at 1pm... then its like i have to go myself there...
and im gonna be alone emo-ing over in the train again...):
haish.. sometimes i really get so tired of this...
how i wish...
that there was a hand extended out to me...
and pull me out of this mess and pain and everything...
haish... but im like saving up for another thing right now...
so i cant buy...):
haish...
finished the maths properties of a circle worksheets le.. did till xiao...
have to proof all the properties then do the questions... somemore 3 worksheets lehhs!!
X.X
haish..
dk how on earth am i supposed to wash my hair (given that my right middle finger is plastered..)
yeahhs..--coz yesterday when i was trying the help yujia get out her cam batt using the scissors, it accidentally went into my finger and caused the skin to tear...
then my father made me apply the iodine solution which was super painful... =.=
haish.
i just dont get why i always get myself into accidents seriously...X.X
hahas.
o.0 yeahhs..im going out to this shop later near my grandparents house..
hehes. im suddenly interested in doing craft work again so im gonna get the supplies later xDD
went surfing around just now when i came upon super lots of pictures on the Eiffel tower... --those pictures practically made my heart skip a beat...(how i wish i could go there right now...--coz i badly need to seek some solace right now...)
haish...; if only i had a miniature eiffel tower which i can put on my study table--then i will be able to stare at it constantly...
Today:
damn it... my class go begged ms nornie to postpone the geog test... i was like, wth... make me study for nothing lorhhs... X.X
and coz of that, i WILL BE HAVING TESTS EVERYDAY NEXT WEEK... darn it.....
i think im gonna go mad some time liao... X.X haish..
my flu and sore throat worsened le... now im coughing...X.X
wth...i've been feeling unwell for sort of a week le lehhs...X.X
haish..
had straight 2 hours of chem spa today...--one was situated at the last 2 periods, the other was a make-up lesson since i missed one practical coz of the chinese oral...
haish... damn xian...
lol. alicia made me hyper early in the morning lorhhs...
--she keep drawing on my leg with her highlighters during geog.. then mr cheong(dk how to spell it...) was like giving us the childish face... LOL.
i like him. he's a funny trainee teacher... lol. his and alicia's conversation today kept me laughing all the way throughout the lesson.
dk if i did screwed my oral or not today... hahas. well...at least i didnt feel that nervous when it was my turn... but i just dont know why i stuttered-a lot...
somehow i think that i wasnt able to form the words structure in the way i wanted it to be so yeahh...~~
haish. but at least it was over.(:
hahas. once again, thanks loads to all those who played a part in helping me to chill out a little(:
yeahhs..and my throat really felt a lot better than(: hahas. hahahs. went to imm today to get ROD stuff... super tired... sun's so glaring and hot todae...):
hahas. we went shopping around and finally got what we wanted aft so much trouble... hahas.
and todae i realised that i cant really be angry with someone--it wont last... after sometime if you just made me laugh , everything will be over.
hahahs.
hmm.. must apologise to yujia( hahas. made her walk around marsiling with me--this damn failed road idiot...) hahas.
but at least we managed to find that shop--only that it had closed for the day. hahas.
but then thank goodness they hadnt left yet--they came out of the shop just when we were about to leave( and i asked the aunty to let us go in and buy which she agreedxDD)
hahas. then yujia went to take train--i went to wait for the direct bus home... waited for so long... and the bus was super cold--was practically freezing back then... hahahs.
first time ever i got back so late like around 8pm like that... hahas.
today was funny. hahaha(:
must refrain myself from eating heaty stuff le... now really got sore throat le.... ):):):
talking on msn now with meiqian. we are now like talking back about our past tgt and comparing that with all present life.
and it all turns out that we both share the same sentiments... we aren't really as happy as we might seem after all...
haish. we were like telling each other how much we missed us being tgt as a clique. not like now, where we are all starting to drift apart from each other le.
haish. and comparing with now, though we got our clique, but seriously , we still miss those times.
and for me, i feel super sadd now. its like, sometimes i really feel as though i cant blend in with the rest of my 306 friends.
to be honest, most of the times, i feel left out and alone. and even if im not, we all dont seem like a clique--we always hang out in pairs, hardly as one...
haish... dunno why but suddenly i just started crying as i type now...
its like, i feel really very terrible inside--it seems hard for me to find someone to confide in now... not like back then... where i have us tgt and all...
seriously... there really isn't anyone... and now i feel as though im gonna die.. its really hard and painful to bottle everything up...
but even if i wanted to tell someone about everything, we will hear? we all are like starting to drift apart le.
seriously, who can be there for me when i need a listener.
im really tired of being someone else's listener ; but where's mine when i need it so badly?
haish...
my tears are just uncontrollable ; they just keep falling.
and i guess that i'll be crying myself to sleep again tonight...
