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i want my 老公！！！

:"(:"(:"(
she's away having fun in genting and kl now...

haish.
im sick now that she's not here with me...):

i want her baaackk!!!
haish
days without her is tough.
esp when i'm starting to get used to her countless no. of phone calls i get from her per day asking me to drop whatever i'm doing at the moment to help her solve it....

haish.
she's my companion during the holidays...
besides charlene and ahgong.
otherwise i'm so gonna rot..X.X

haish.
she coming back only on friday....-night...
haish.
want go out with her.
give her her xmas present.
hehes.
she owes me mine tooxDD

ahwells....

gonna go watch tv now.
maths l8r. xDDD

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爱是一场越过天际落向永恒的旅行
原来一切只是美丽
当我终于明白我爱你
寻觅草天的香气
每段小径都很甜蜜
北房间是否也得那片森林
变松果落地时都在开心

天气很晴你是一行蔚蓝色的诗句
湖泊很静而我携着朗读无处不在的爱情

比利时的黑巧克力余韵不如你
葡萄庄园里的香槟清澈不及你
古典钢琴弹不出你微笑时的声音
爱你才是我最重要的旅行
山腰蜿蜒的小径余韵不如你
琉璃瓦上的雨滴清澈不及你
你是这个世界旅行中最美的风景

于是沙漠于是寂寞
就像我们不说话的时候
于是冰丘于是心暖和
就像我们牵着手的时候

天气很晴你是一行蔚蓝色的诗句
水流很轻我的思绪永远在最爱你的距离

比利时的黑巧克力余韵不如你
葡萄庄园里的香槟清澈不及你
古典钢琴弹不出你微笑时的声音
爱你才是我最重要的旅行
山腰蜿蜒的小径余韵不如你
琉璃瓦上的雨滴清澈不及你
你是这个世界旅行中最美的风景

这爱情)比利时的黑巧克力余韵不如你
葡萄庄园里的香槟清澈不及你
古典钢琴弹不出你微笑时的声音
爱你才是我最重要的旅行
山腰蜿蜒的小径余韵不如你
琉璃瓦上的雨滴清澈不及你
你是这个世界旅行中最美的风景



its a superr sweet song..!!!xDDDDD

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well, didnt do much today, just did some touching up to the surprise part #1...
was watching pi li mit with my bro today.
hahas.
the whole house feels superr weird without my cousin here today...
he wont be here for tmr too...
coz my aunt and my yizhang have taken leave so he'll most prob be going out these few days...

haish. guess i must start to learn to get use to him not being in my hse anymore le..
well, apart from the moving house issue, coz he'll be in pri 1 nxt year and his sch is near to his house, so my grandparents will be the ones who'll be looking after him instead...

and that means that i cn only him on sundays...
saddsaddsadd...
i'll seriously miss the times he made me angry...and stuff like that...):


haish.
going to buy my father's present tmr instead..
hehes. mingxuan coming along with me!!:DDD
hehes. causeway point tmr!!
hahas.
for the first time ever, i've got one of u guys to come my hse here to shop with me!!xDDD
LOLs.


wheee~~~(:(:(:(:(:

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whee!! its gonna be christmas soon!!
hehes!!
well, though i dont usually celebrate, somehow this year, i find myself being influenced by mx they all.
hehes.
i'm seriously looking forward to our own christmas outing!!xDDDDD
hehehes.
and well, i hope by then, my surprise will be loved by u guys though!!

am in the process of making them now.
well, slow progress though...
haish.
planned to get them done within 3 days, but i guess it'll have to be four coz i only managed to get the first small part done today...well, not exactly everything lahhs...but then...just the colour only...
its hard..

i mean the thing...
hard to..
lol, do smth on it?

hahs.
these few days can be counted as the last of my slacking days.
well,somehow, its fun doin such things.
hmm.
and i hope that i can try doin THAT TOO.
i wanna try to make it or smth...
but i lack the complete materials though..):

hmm.
tmr, i wont be going out with u guys to partyworld even though i planned it tgt with yiran...
well, just have superr lots of fun kayy guys??

hehes. and i'll meet u all at the class chalet!!
me am in the process of saving up now!!:DDD

going go buy my father's present tmr!!xDDD
hehes. mymymy..his bdae falls quite near to x'mas!!
hehes.xDDD

hmm. found out what to buy for him le, but then...
i've still got to think of a design for the card..

well, had an inspiration le but not sure whether it works out not...
sadd..
right!!
needa go popular tmr to get some stuff for part of the surprise...
but then...i still haven exactly ...ahhs oh well.


$$$!!!
how do i ever ask K.H. to pass me my money??
ahhs..
lol. it feels weird lehhs.
haish.

guess i'll have to w8 for him to pass me on the first day of sch at the mrt station....X.X

right...
revisions got disrupted now le.
must replan again...=.=
haish.
tmr....i hope i can chiong as much of the stuff as possible.
ahhs wellwellwell...
i should stop watching tv le...


o.0
and speaking of that, hehes.
i finally watched finished the last episode of my drama le!!xDDD
well, though i dont quite get the ending, but i still find it SUPERR SWEET somehow!!:DDD

hehes. now i'm having the urge to re-watch it again!!
LOLs.





meowmeow!!xDD

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didnt came online for a few nights le.
oh shit!!!
just rmb that i've gotta send zhixin my feedback bout the night hike during camp....
X.X

shitshitshit!!
freakkingly....i've got serious short-term-memory...)":):)":

but then seriously, i did rmb it a few hours ago....X.X

oh well...
the rest like nvr do lehhs...
why me...
lol.
coz they need 2 feedbacks from each patrol and coincidentally, i'm the patrol second??:OOO

LOL.
oh well. prob gonna go do soon . hehe. maybe i shall text zhixin in bed.xD


haish.
the stupid renovation works upstairs is taking forever long to complete.
i mean, THEY told us it was till the 7 of dec...
but i mean, now its like, 15 DEC???!!!
WTH.

well, i almost had the urge of goin upstairs to tell them to stop drilling or smth.
i mean,
i actually planned to do some revision today and i seriously need some peace in order to get things started, but then there came the knocking, hammering and drilling and all those stuff thats disrupting my peace..
and in the end, it made me lose the mood to study, well that's the main factor,apart from the dramas, computer and the itouch, that is.

haish.
stupid drilling.
the drama so...
yet the stupid noise upstairs ruined the whole atmosphere.
seriously, i cnt stand it if someone interrupts when i'm in the midst of watching smth...
and i can get superr irritated.
X.X

oh well, went back to sch yest afternoon for drills.
saddsaddsadd.
the weather's superr hot that i was like, even tanner when i got home, especially my face.
we didnt have long breaks, and it was like, all the way till bout 5?
under the hot sun in the parade sq, before we can finally move into the foyer which has SHADE AT ROUND 4??
LOL.
whats the use since its alrdy so late...X.x

yujia superr good lorhs.
go genting then cn miss the drills, and she's coming back tmr.

so many sec 1s nvr come. dunno all go where le.
hehe.
and actually, yujia's(lee) new hairstyle is superr cute!!
hahas.xDDD

hmm, but what was the most satisfying thing was that, we learnt almost all our drills that we ought to le.
hehe.
and we're sort of better than previously, esp with all the drills training that we had continuously.

AND LOL.
seriously,just because i went to the PLTC TRAINING doesn't actually mean that i have to become the next CL right??!!
i mean,
after seeing mrs tan scolding yingying, seriously, i dont think i can ever do it if i'm selected to be the next one.
i mean, just imagine me having to err, talk louder than usual to the company or smth??
wow.
and the job's superr stressing, and if i am chosen, SERIOUSLY, I DON'T THINK THAT I CAN COPE AND HANDLE IT.

haish.
i've just got this negative feeling bout it and bout myself too.
idk.
its just,
all so fast and everything??
well...
i guess i'll just have to take it as it goes..


tmr, will be watching the last episode le!!
hehes!!
looking superr forward!!XDDDDD


and, to me now, my blog's only a way for me to vent out everything.

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and somehow, though my hair's slightly longer than shoulder-length, i'm beginning to find myself liking it.

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LOL.
charlene's back le!!!xDDD

LOL.
we spammed so many comments on fb just now...
me, charlene herself, mingxuan and cheryl.
HAHAHAHAHAS..
lalalas~~

i'm in a happy mood now, thanks to the laughing i've gotten from all the comments that made me laugh irresistibly in an empty room, in front of the computer, to myself...

hehehehes.
hahahahahahas.
and yeah, somehow, i find the song and its lyrics that i just posted earlier on superr sadd...

guess i'll prob breakdown if i ever hear that song whenever i'm sadd...):"


but its superr nice too!!(:

o.0 leaving my hse in the morning so have to wake up earlier...
o.0
i've already planned what to wear yest or smth, i think.
LOL.
hehe. save me from the trouble(:

whee!~~~
i just love my black jacket!!!xDDD

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梁文音 - 哭过就好了



不喜欢怀疑什麽
并不表示我 没有感受
看你微妙的变化 慢慢不同
我不是生气 只是心痛

最讨厌被误会了
但越解释越觉得难过
你可以说人会变 但不能说
你会这麽做 是我的错

哭过就好了 伤都会好的
这样相信所以深呼吸着割舍
爱是为了拥抱 为了牵手
不是为了争吵 为了调头
哭过就好了 痛都会走的
记忆有限 所以它会淘汰坏的
失眠听歌 想念虽然苦涩
还是谢谢你让我长大了

最讨厌被误会了
但越解释越觉得难过
你可以说人会变 但不能说
你会这麽做 是我的错

哭过就好了 伤都会好的
这样相信所以深呼吸着割舍
爱是为了拥抱 为了牵手
不是为了争吵 为了调头
哭过就好了 痛都会走的
记忆有限 所以它会淘汰坏的
失眠听歌 想念虽然苦涩
还是谢谢你让我长大了

越多美好堆叠的过往
想忘就得推倒更大的悲伤
要找勇气却不在口袋或手上
但它一定在我身上 某个地方

哭过就好了 痛都会走的
记忆有限 所以它会淘汰坏的
失眠听歌 想念虽然苦涩
还是谢谢你让我长大了

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wheee~~~!!!!
i've finally completed all my hw today and i'm kinda free for now, that is!!!
HAHHAHAAHAHA!!!
goin out tgt with my mum with bro and cousin to suntec tmr for the bkfest!!!xDDD
hehes.
then maybe go shop for my father's bdae present also!!:DDD
hehes its coming soon!!
hmm.. if we see smth suitable for him tmr, then i dunnid to go out anymore by myself to search for his present..

hmm...
prob gonna spend a lot of money there too...
sadd sadd sadd...
broke le...
wonder how i'm gonna spend my remaining holidays...
X.X

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having late nights recently..
yest night was the toughest somehow..
stayed on9 till bout 12.30 before i finally went off...
by then my eyelids were super heavy and a bit swollen i think...
it hurts somehow when i blink...

then there came the part where i was lying on my bed, unable to sleep.
i tried not to think bout things so that i can sleep better.
but still, it didn't work.


woke up superr early today...
bout 8.15am...
superr tired...

stubborn me just wouldn't go to sleep now cause i know that i won't be able to.


managed to finish all my 8 jianbaos by today and i'm left with the bao zhang du hou gan and the gong han for the chinese paper de...
wanted to do bao zhang du hou gan todae de...
but well, obviously i slacked again....X.X

father's sleeping soon and i'll be the only one left again...
haish.

cut my hair shorter todae...
so short...
)":

did a good deed today by giving agnes a surprise by printing the ws for her and delivering it specially to her too..

and it rained today afternoon.

will be superr busy on the coming days...
and coz i've got cca mtg nxt mon...
i've got to re-organise my schedule.
and its making me confused....X.X


i dont want go back do some stupid footdrills lahh!!!
sarah-the tough and torturous drill-in-charge...

sure die till wat de lorhhs...
somemore under the BIG, HOT, SUN.....)':

though i wish to become tanner, this isn't the way i wanted it to be...








scared;

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ahhs..sadd sadd sadd..
im superr slacking now...
haish.
im always like that when i come to that kind of decision...X.X
...

my phone gt some settings prob...
so prob have to go to cwp tmr...
the service centre there and get it repaired.

feels kinda weird not checking my smses....):

well well well.
i've decided to do 8 jianbaos instead...
just in case they dun collect or smth..
and now i'm working on my 2nd jianbao of the day, which is the 7th jianbao in total, and talking to xuann and finding some songs at the same time or well at least, their lyrics.

hehe. i'm superr slack now.
wonder how i can complete my remaining 2 jianbaos, 1 bao zhang du hou gan and 1 gong han by thurs?!!
o.0
thats my first and final deadline i set for myself..
gonna start doin those "things" till the chalet..
hehes.
i hope i'll do a gd job though...**

now im the only one who's still nt asleep...
trying to do jianbao b4 i go to bed..
LOL.

having a bit of cough right now.
well seriously i dont even knw how i got one...
ahhs well well.
better stop blogging and continue on with my jianbao.





purple rose!!:DDD

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omg...its so sadd....):):

i mean...
the song, the scenes and the drama....
sadd sadd sadd....









你絕望的那天
門關的很輕

我卻從沒聽見妳
流淚聲音

守著我背影
原來是妳 一直是妳
越是來不及
越責怪自己 沒有說

好想說親愛的是我
愛如何哭著問候不顫抖
曾在泥濘背著我走
又朝陽光背對我走
不再邊笑邊呼喚我

好想說親愛的是我
撕裂回憶比存封還難受
說好聽見回答就走
又怕你只回答就走
像在夢裡回過頭說
親愛的是我

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i've got serious stm...
seriously!!!
i really cnt rmb what i wanna write for my jianbao right after i talked to jwen..
gosh....
its like i'm stuck in the middle of nowhere with no clues on how i should continue on...X.X


and and and.
i'm getting confused all over again now.
over things that have been troubling me for some time but yet till now where i still cant find the answers to it...

helpp....
people's opinions do change after sometime, don't they?
well...

maybe; maybe i'm starting to see this whole thing in a new way.
i hope i am, at least in a positive way....


i-need-help.
help.
help.
help.



to do or not to do.
helpp!!!


off to sleep now..gave up on my jianbao...
and ended chatting instead.

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i keep replaying that song in my head ;.....

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im backkkk!!!
hahas.
came back late last night...
stupid idiotic jam at the malaysia checkpoint's freakking me out, and making me super exhausted.
thats the reason why i hate jams...
somehow i just can't stand it...X.X

ehhs.
will most prob blog bout the trip tmr...
going to try chionging as much of my 2nd jianbao for the day as possible before i go sleep...

LOL.
spent the morning helping my father to make some amendments to his name cards...
then did one jianbao in bout 1hr 3o mins...
its been many days since i last did one...
then watched tv from then onwards(from the afternoon till now..)

wow..
didnt even realised that i'd watched so many hours of tv...X.X
HAISH.
yet another day gone...):


well.
this trip back to m'sia has brought me some SUPERR GOOD NEWS though...
WHEEE!!!
and that is that, my ah man jiejie's getting married nxt year!!!!:D:D:D:D:D

YAY!!!!:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D

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AHHHS!!!
THOSE TWO PIGS PISSED ME OFF TODAE!!!
THEY RUINED MY DAY!!!
DAMN IT....
X.X

stupid pigs.
well, i've already tried my best from glaring at them just now when i was out for dinner.
stupid.
i HATE these kind of ppl.
sometimes there's a limit to my patience, and i dont see myself having to tolerate such ill-mannered people.

somehow i just CANT stand myself having to behave in this way if i EVER HAVE TO TRY TOLERATING THEM.

ahhs.
have been trying to save this song for like dk hw many times and im goin mad over it le.
damn it.


....

going into m'sia bout 8 in the morning...
gave up trying to find the songs.
prob will ask my aunt for some help.
haish.
feel like buying cds now.
cds and dvds.
i want them all.
....
HAISH.

i think the last time i ever bought was that that THAT LONG AGO....

HAISH.
I WANT BUY CDS....
CRYCRYCRY....



cried over roseate-love today....)":

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在大雨过后的傍晚
我一个人走很慢
那把他握过的雨伞
在我手心里发呆
想问每一座山脉
有多少转弯
想问每一份相爱
有多难爱是我找好久的依赖
看被雨打湿的花瓣我揣摩勇敢
就要幸福了我不能鼻酸
爱是我最心里的期待
爱会用满手的温暖把悲伤擦干
就要幸福了我就算孤单
心却不再空白
---music----
我看着那一面星光
默念寂寞的旁白
我的心事锁了起来
不让谁都能浏览
我相信有一天
会听到令人想哭的誓言
我和他从那天
就一直会走向永远
爱没错我真的相信爱
在我最脆弱的时候爱要我乐观
就要幸福了在不远未来
爱是我最心里的期待
爱会用满手的温暖把悲伤擦干
就要幸福了我就算孤单
心却不再空白我真的相信爱



我，相信爱的存在。。。
你。呢？。

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sleeping now..
too tired to continue writing jianbao le...
o.0
i'm lagging behind..

sobsob*
tmr must wake up promptly and not laze in bed...
hmm.
wake up earlier than i can watch my dvds earlier while waiting for my breakfast to be brought up by my family(coz i dont usually go down for breakfast on saturdays.i'll prefer sleeping in.)

hmm.
goin start a new dvd soon.
the current ones i'm watching...
well...
dont feel like watching them tmr.
so...they'll have to wait, i guess..


righteee....
then aft that i'll prob have to ensure that i can complete three(well, the standardized two at least per day) jianbaos.
must chiong chiong and chiong!!!


whee!!
i'll be goin m'sia on sunday!!
well.
i dont miss my cousins that much lahh..
but, i still do miss them somehow.
xD

hahas.now my family's room in the "bungalow" has air-con!!
well, only for my room!!!
and i miss sleeping in it..):):

LOL.
i even changed in there many times before u knw...
well...
of course i pulled down the blinds..
tsktsk.

haiz.
got two years le bahhs.
come to think of it, time really flies by...

HAISH.

and LOL.

to meiqian:

LOL.
308 doesn't sound like "three-eggs" lorhhs...
if u wanna say urs does...
then what about mine...??X.X

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ahhs. crapp.
was busy sms-ing the whole today.:D

sadd sadd sadd..
why the song no full ver. de...):):

ehhhs...
why my house downstairs so noisy??!!
o.0s
they set up a stage?!

for...???

off for dinner now.wish myself, happy eating!!:D


i miss the rain; it reminds me of you and the past.(:

brown; an earthy colour. i like.

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omg. just realised that i have been on9 since morning...
X.X

no jianbao completed yet so far so tonite will be chionging again.
LOL.
i only managed to write 3 short paragraphs for the whole day?!

GOSH...
have this weird weird feeling again..
i mean, after seeing the comments on fb...
omg...



i'd better stop thinking that way...or even having suspicions about it...

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snacking m&m's now as i work on my 1st jianbao of the day..
love m&m's now!!:D

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omg..
me...in 306'10!!!
wow.
dont really like the no...but then..
those ppl who are in the same class as me, well, i knw most of them...
have a feeling its gonna be a competitive year nxt year...
they're all like so pro de lorhhs....

omg...

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tmr the allocation of the classes will be out le!! gosh!!
LOL.
feeling a bit...
how do u describe that??
weird?
uneasy?
or what??

talking to cousin now, i mean my cousin on my father's side de.
hmm.
hope that she will be goin back m'sia this weekend.
then i can see her and her cute cute lil' bro le!!:D
he's sooo cutee!!!:D:D:D

LOL.
fa1 hua1 chi1....=.=
tsktsk.

whee!
goin complete my 3rd jianbao soon!!xD
left 2 more paragraphs nia!!
hmm.
took bout 4 hrs in all to do 2 jianbaos todae...
still vry. long lahh.
but well, there's an improvement though(:

LOL.
seriously, i have SHORT TERM MEMORY LOSS...
cnt even rmb what i wanted to write the next instant i thought of it...X.X
that's why i took such a superr long time to write, having to keep thinking all over agn for the specific part that i want.
well, that's apart from the part where i cnt differentiate btw the reasons and consequences...X.X

haish.

i'm bored.


ate too much chilli...X.X


crapp.
wanted to stand up and go outside into the living room when my leg went weak all of a sudden...
....

...........

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yawns*
superr tired today.
woke up volunteering to help my mum do housework cause she has to bring my bro to the swimming complex to take his silver swimming test.
hahas!! he passes!!:D
well, he swims quite fast u knw..:D:D:D:D:D
:D:D:D

well..so i did housework, rested for a while, than bathed coz i have to go out and buy lunch and well, bread.
went out twice todae.
well, apparently for some reasons.
then came back, ate lunch, cleared up, then started doin hw.
well.
chinese...
err..i managed to finish my last open-ended compre in bout 1 hr...which was SUPERR SLOW...=.=
well.
i took like 2 pages=1 foolscap paper for the first, and nearly 3 pages=2 foolscap for the next.
LOL.
dont ask me why i wrote so much.
i'm one whose hand cant stop writing once i'm holding a pen or smth...-.-

hah.
slacked for more than an hour playing my itouch then continued on with my jian bao.
well...
stupid lahhs.
why do we have to do 10 jianbaos and 2 bk reviews?!
well.
heng i've alrdy done my book review half a year ago.
:D
I DID 6 COMPLETED, THE REST HALF-DONE XD
hmm.

err...
i only managed to do one, out of the 10...
which i took like 2hrs 15 mins to do?!!
WOW.=.=

err...but that's only 3 and a half pages lahh.
not exactly a lot actually.

haish.
well.
yest night after reading lois's blog i really cnt get to sleep.
i have a seriously wild imagination.X.X

ehhs.
its a burden to my mind...

haish.
how i wished i could talk to someone last night....
but...
well, i didn't get my wish in the end though.

and so, i'm suffering today from tiredness...
haish.


guess i'll still be suffering from insomnia for the next few nights....X.X
haish.



i need....
haish.



no one will ever know how i feel..

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haish.
omg
i just read lois's blog.
and i'm like, OMG?!!!
I MEAN, ITS SCARY.
I MEAN, HER DREAM.
AND I MEAN, ME=DEAD?!
IN A WEDDING GOWN?!!
ahhs.
she's giving me a shiver...
well.
maybe i shouldn't have gone to her blog just when i was about to go sleep...
:"(
now, i guess i'll have to suffer from insomnia AGAIN...X.X


haiz.
omg.
i'm always bad at consoling people u knw, and now, how do i even do that to assure myself?!
gosh...



does a "dream are always the opposite of reality" helps?
oh-my-gosh.

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lol..
went to chinatown todae.
hahas.
so funn.
my date with ah piao .xD
LOL.
i'm still w8ing for my nickname...
ah piao's reflexes are so slow...X.X
hahas.
jwen's name is i helped to think of de.
and its so nice lorhhs.
HEHE.^^


haiz.
dont want do jianbao.
feel like a failure man.
i mean, i cant even get myself to sit down and do my hw...
and and and, i ONLY managed to complete a maths ws over the whole of nov holidays?!!
....
HAISH.
i'm such a failure...

....


wanted to try doin it de.
but then.
the moment i on-ed my comp, everything's just...
poof*
ALL MY INSPIRATION...
they're just gone, in an instant....-.-



haish.

will coffee work?