Sunday, May 29, 2011 @ 10:07 PM
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29th May.
It's an important day in my life.
每年的今天，我总会坐在窗前，仰望着夜空，寻找夜里的星星。
2011年的今天，我也不例外。
只不过，只不过今晚我没有看到星星而已。。。
每一年的今晚，我都会看星星，想着你。
我。。。
真的有好多话想要对你说。。。
好想问你过得好吗？。。。
好想对你说我真的、真的、真的好想你。。。
你， 听得到吗？
很多时候，我是多么的希望能够听到你的回复。。。
可是到了最后，一切仍然是一片寂静。。。
我， 真的，好想要再一次见到你。。。
也许，再一次就好了。。。
。。。
29th May ; it'll forever remain as a secret in my heart...
Friday, May 27, 2011 @ 10:43 PM
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oh gosh...
i'm still sneezing...):
why oh why?!!
my family say they feel very hot tonight...
but just on the contrary, i'm feeling super cold and my nose is blocked...): plus my head feels very heavy...):
oh no... i hope i'm not gonna fall sick again...):
omg...
no....
ahhh...
i wish i could sleep...
and refrain myself from thinking too much...
Thursday, May 26, 2011 @ 9:30 PM
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hmm... people say that when you sneeze, it means that someone is thinking of you at that moment.
which means that someone is apparently thinking of me now, since i just sneezed.
well. if what people say about sneezes is true, than i would rather not be missed,perhaps.
sneezing makes my nose weird, given that i had just recovered from a bout of flu...):
hmm. apart from that, i'm kind of very excited now! aww... i miss that place...):
Saturday, May 21, 2011 @ 5:50 PM
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stay strong and don't cry.
yup. i'm just gonna tell myself that.
20/05/2011 was the best time in Guides<3
4 years... i've witnessed my juniors' growth..
we have had loads of fun and laughter together.
creating memories, enjoying every single moment of guides...
yes.
it has indeed been almost 4 years now...
i can proudly say that i have never ever regretted joining guides.
it's part of my life, and most importantly, it's part of me.
Guides was a platform where i've seen myself grow and mature.
i'm not the WanYing that i used to be when i had first joined Guides anymore.
Maybe this might sound mushy to you, but without guides, i probably wouldn't be who i am today.
Memories and laughter which I obtained from guides would have probably not belonged to me; in short, my life would have been missing a piece of its jigsaw puzzle.
4 years; it's neither long nor short.
But they are the period where I met all of you guys.
Friendships had been slowly established while closer ties were fostered day by day.
Much as i don't want to leave, i would still have to, in the end.
Leaving is part and parcel of life..
It will all come eventually, just a matter of when..
I know all of us will miss each other, but i can assure everyone that it won't be the last you see of the sec fours...
Nope. i'm not gonna cry...):
We must all stay strong together even though we may not be around with you guys anymore...
Even if the sec fours are not around, we'll always be together as one, as a part of Guides<3.
Remember,
once a guide, always a guide.
Sunday, May 15, 2011 @ 6:12 AM
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胡夏 - 数到三不哭
作词：何厚华、李煊乐 作曲：陈亮
www.666ccc.com今生缘音乐网
我离开那天 季节骤变
正好准备开始冬眠
你宁愿赌气不说再见
映在车窗那张侧脸
终於渐行渐遥远
写信 说着你的改变
你的忙碌 只是为了好过一点
每过一天 就在日记上画一个圈
越存越多的想念
数到三不哭 我们有未完的幸福
生活就像缺了一块拼图
分开走的路 各自寂寞的追逐
只为了约好并肩看日出
数到三不哭 眼泪是天使的礼物
要让真心的人学会付出
在心中默数 下次见面的相处
对你的爱更清楚
数到三不哭 眼泪在适合的温度
才能灌溉出花开的幸福
在心中默数 下次见面的相处
数到三说好不哭
@ 3:00 AM
Saturday, May 14, 2011 @ 7:00 PM
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Thanks to my parents for attempting to cheer me up today...(:
Sunday, May 8, 2011 @ 3:48 PM
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It won't be the last year i have so many people celebrating my birthday for me right?
haish...
@ 2:45 PM
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I hope, i wish, in another 15 minutes time...
let my wishes be conveyed to the stars above(:
make it come true,
let it bring forth a smile on my face.
and i will be happy(:
@ 5:33 AM
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it's just less than a day left now...
haish...
and idk why all my excitement has died down in just that instant.
yeahh.
i'm feeling so xian and numb all of a sudden.
is it cause of a lack of sleep?
or is it because of the hot and humid weather that is making me feel this way?
all of a sudden, i don't know why i just can't seem to even smile..
i remembered that earlier on in the morning, i wasn't even like this.
right? so what just happened to me now is a mystery.
haish.
whatever.
i'm tired of this feeling seriously..
arghh.
maybe spamming chocolates might be the best option for now and well, i'm just gonna do that. maybe i will feel better. H.A.H.A. ...
and and and,
tonight i will make myself stay up to count down.
i will reflect on my 15 years of life and well yeahh, just think of random stuff and probably make myself emo all over again and again.
well yup, i shall just do that.
and i hope that i won't have to feel so lonely tmr.
well...i know i will still feel a bit sad, but then... i guess i can't help it after all yeahh?
tmr=birthday= first time i will be alone throughout the whole day.
): ): ):
Tuesday, May 3, 2011 @ 11:35 PM
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Here I am, sitting alone at the balcony once again, unable to sleep
for some reasons. Tonight, there aren't any stars, but just the lonely soul of a girl who does nothing but to stare at the lights beneath her feet in silence.
Sunday, May 1, 2011 @ 12:23 AM
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No. I'm not at all okay. Seriously, I doubt that I am. It's hard trying to make, or should I say, force myself from thinking about it. It's really hard. Forcing myself to act normal is hard as well. But that is the only thing I can do so as to not make anyone worry about me right? Maybe, maybe I guess. It's hard trying to prevent myself from thinking about it. The only thing I can do is to keep myself occupied at any point of time, so that my thoughts wouldn't wander. Seriously, I can't help but think if I had actually expected too much this this year, for there is only greater disappointment brought about by larger and higher expectations. Previously, I had anticipated this day so much. But now, I wanna stop counting down. Come to think of it now, it's pointless for me to continue counting down with all the great anticipation. Things won't happen according to what I had expected previously. So tell me, what's the point now to continue counting down? Seriously, the last thing I need to hear is to tell me to be happy, for I know that I can't and I won't be able to. That's it. In short, everything is just screwed up totally upside down now.
