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haiz.
am overwhelmed with lots of mixed emotions now-but they're mostly that of saddness and 不舍。

还记得我们中一的时候吗？
原本不相识的我们，
现在，却已成为了再要好不过的好朋友。
当初的不熟悉， 当初的害怕与不安，全都在我们从陌生人变成了好朋友的过程中，慢慢地，一点一点地消失了。

转眼间；两年几乎已经来到了一个尾声。
我们，都即将要分班了。
虽然我并不知道我们是否能够再一次地和你们同班，但我唯一最清楚的，我们之间所拥有过的那些美好回忆，到死，我都不会忘的。
这两年以来，若不是因为你们给予我的鼓励与扶持，恐怕我早已没有那鼓推动力与勇气， 继续下去，而会是在这艰辛的的过程中半途而废了。

是你们，带给了我欢笑；让我的生命七彩缤纷，五颜六色。
是你们，让我能够有这个机会，去拥有和你们那么多刻骨铭心的回忆-它就像树根一样地，牢牢地扎在我的心中，永不磨灭，无法被时间与任何人给除去的。
是你们，陪伴着我，在这两年的路途上，一起成长，一起哭，一起笑，也一起努力。
最后，我想要说的是，
无论接下来的日子会是怎样，
我们都得努力的，勇敢的去面对，哪怕彼此不会在自己的身旁了。

你们一定要加油噢！


haiz..
feeling damn emotional as i typed out this...:"(

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my voice now has become deeper le..
ahhs..
thanks to my flu.
glad i've became better-from my previous sore throat and cough and flu.:D

haha.
its been a long time since i last fell ill..LOL.

O-O
tmr inline skating! cool:D
haha.
gr8 timing though.
having some plans apparently.:D

hmm...
AND AND AND,
MY FATHER'S FINALLY COMING BACK TMR!!
YAY!!

I MISS HIM!!:D
<3



LOL.
HERE's my leadership camp de group photo!
hahas. we rawkk!!xD

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HAIZ.

something happened at home todae..
just received some very very bad news..

HAIZ.

i just wanna see u smile; instead of your tears.


HAIZ.

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ahhhs..
goin away for camp tmr..=.=
:"(
wth..

my father will be leaving round 3.30 am in the morning-for the airport.
will only be seeing him many days l8r..:"(

haiz.
wonder if my phone's able to last me for 3 days.wtf.
the battery's always running out fast-even though i didnt use it much.x.X

haiz.
really dun feel like goin tmr..
haiz.
not gonna tie plaits. just a ponytail.

feeling so...
so weird and sick all of a sudden..
haiz.

my bag's damn fat.
stuffed all the things inside.

HAIZ.

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omg...
i just love those shows that im watching!!
its superr nice!!XD

lol.
went to my grandparents' house todaY as usual.
so my family and i were like having lunch smwhere near my grandparents' house when we saw some mediacorp artistes.
haha so cool.
lol.



tmr nidda do loads of packing...
whoots!!
but i can go out with charlene!!:D
ahhs. nice.:D

gonna get jwen her present..
o.0
cabbage will finally be back tmr!!:D

sadd...
wanna go out tgt with her.
miss goin out tgt with her so much!!

lol.


looking forward to tmr's hanging out with charlene!!
hahahas.

lol.
someone just made me laugh..
haha..


o.0.
2 more weeks till the holidays le!!
hahas.


nxt year sec 3 le..
so fast..):

hmm...
my subject combination thingy...
i've sort of thought it over..
but not to a conclusion yet..
lol.




this song's nice!!
hahas. its one of the songs from the show that im currently watchingxD.


他的轻狂留在 某一节车厢
地下铁里的风 比回忆还重
整座城市一直等着我
有一段感情还在漂泊
对他唯一遗憾是分手那天
我奔腾的眼泪都停不下来
若那一刻重来 我不哭
让他知道我可以很好
我爱他 轰轰烈烈最疯狂
我的梦狠狠碎过却不会忘
曾为他相信明天就是未来
情节有多坏 都不肯醒来
我爱他 跌跌撞撞到绝望
我的心深深伤过却不会忘
我和他不再属于这个地方
最初的天堂 最终的荒唐
如果还有遗憾 又怎么样呢
伤了痛了懂了 就能好了吗
曾经依靠彼此的肩膀
如今各自在人海流浪
我爱他 轰轰烈烈最疯狂
我的梦狠狠碎过却不会忘
逃不开 爱越深越互相伤害
越深的依赖 越多的空白
该怎么去爱
我爱他 轰轰烈烈最疯狂
我的梦狠狠碎过却不会忘
曾为他相信明天就是未来
情节有多坏 都不肯醒来
我爱他 跌跌撞撞到绝望
我的心深深伤过却不会忘
我和他不再属于这个地方
最初的天堂 最终的荒唐
如果还有遗憾是分手那天
我奔腾的眼泪都停不下来
若那一刻重来 我不哭
让他知道我可以 很好


kind of a sad song actually.
but, its my type.:D
lol.
i know im weird.

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went out to the expo yesterday...
lol. is actually i suggested to go there...
got the metro thingy there then can shun bian go there since i've not been there for so long..

its like so cold in there lahh...
but then very funn...:D

lol.

didnt went on9 when i came back round 11 coz i was practically damn tired; since i woke up so early in the morning...

so i went to sleep almost immediately..lol.

my packing's almost done..

lol.
the day i leave for camp will be the day my father leave for some parts in thailand for his backpacking trip which he has been wanting to go for a long time but couldnt coz of his busy schedule.

but now he finally can since he's gonna quit his present job soon and he's already got a job offer in smwhere else.

he can finally not be so stressed and hectic in his work load anymore.

lol.

came up with the idea of giving the children there in the rural areas something.
they are just so...
haiz.

its just so unfair.

tmr will be goin out to get them some more things.
i really wanna help them do smth.
play my part n everything; in exchange for their smiles.
that'll be the most wonderful thing i want.


lol.
im so addicted to so many shows now!
hahaha.

so damn nice man!!

ahhhs..
going go now...
gotta bathe then go out to my grandparents' house..

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yawns*

damn sleepy now..

slept bout 1am this early morning...thanks to art...

yawns...

stupid headache's making me dizzy...

lol...

haiz...

felt the tremor of an earthquake which happened today...
wonder whats its richter scale...
coz its like round the evening time, i was lying on my bed, trying to rest and i felt it...
lol...
thought it was my imagination in the first place but then it shaking to tremor even more vigorously..lol...my bed was shaking back n forth-cnt be seen but can be felt that type.


haiz...
now that eoys' are over,
i feel as though im no diff. from a dead person...
am damn bored now...
haiz...
wonder what i can do tmr..

my trip's been cancelled...
coz someone needa go back m'sia- it was a last-minute kinda thing...

hmm...
its either i'll be staying at home or going out with my family members to smwhere.

haha..

looking forward to my class outing agn...
someone's gonna take a revenge on me...
lol..
but it sounds fun..

lol..

better go off to bed now...
will be a good girl, since i didnt sleep in the afternoon..



lol.
took this out of randomness..

Your Best Trait is Persistence

You are strong willed and very stubborn. You don't give up, even when everyone else thinks you should. You are good at selecting a goal, figuring out how to achieve, and putting your nose to the grindstone until you've got it. You've got true grit. You may not be the richest or luckiest person you know, but you're definitely the toughest. You are independent and always do things your own way. If people question your tactics, it only makes you more determined.

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1 more week till the exams are over!
that seems a bit long; though its only 7 days...

i wonder how many brain cells i've lost over the eoys...
hais...


practically slacked for the past 2 days...
didnt do much revision though...
keep slacking...

hais...
didnt i said before that i'll stop sighing?! lol..





a feeling of mixed emotions came over me today when i saw that box.
that box of notes and letters.
that is, from both you and you.

oh well..
and i'm suddenly reminded of the days we spent together back in primary school.
we were the bestest of friends; always hanging out with each other as though we were inseparable;
what's left now,
is just the bits and pieces of memories we had had together.
all the bits and pieces that just serve as evidence that we were even friends before.

that is;
before the three of us went on our separate ways.

but;
if time could ever be turned back,
i wanna return to the times where we spent our days happily with one another.


as i was reading all the past notes and letters;
i cant help,
but bu4 you2 zi4 zhu3 di4 smile.
and that smile;
truly comes from the bottom of my heart,
as it relived those memories;
even though its only for a moment or so.

but,
i'm just happy enough with that.
it just gives me motivation and of course, happiness.

i'll just never be able to forget all those times we have had together.
never ever, ever.







我想我并不聪明
我没有你的机灵
在爱情变质之前我没反应
没察觉你的表情








你知道我不聪明
所以才选择放弃
放弃去猜你每一个反应
去猜你是否变心


放弃你放弃爱情


放弃了所有权利


连自己都知道这不公平


放弃你放弃自己


放弃了爱的权利



放弃你等於放弃我自己
所以我选择放弃
放弃去猜该如何留住你
放弃了所有回忆






[同样仰望着一片天空的两人；究竟会在想些什么呢?]

[窗外的雨; 一直不停的下; 一直望着它的我; 仍然在等待着...]

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3 papers have gone past now, and all 3 are badd, so far..
didnt finish at all..
history i left with 1 n a half ques nt completed; then idk how do some of the source-based ques..
lol.
the only thing that i'm confident of is the mcqs, which i think i got most correct. lol. think i took only bout 3 mins to do that. it was easy lahh..
lol.

as for chinese,
i dun think i wrote a lot..
but i didnt do 1 ques...
the rest idk lahh...
haiz...
rmbed last time i got 101 out of 110 for dk when de paper...but now, if i can still get a 95 or smwhere around there, i'll be contented.

as for todae's geog, it was a complete disaster?!
somehow have this feeling that im gonna flunk my mcqs-very worse that kind.
kinda got stuck there...=.=
haiz..
the rest smhow still okayy...
didnt do 1 ques, but another though i did do, i didnt manage to change it, coz it seems wrong to me...lol. in fact, its really really wrong.LOL.

felt damn uneasy on the mrt back home, coz of this weird weird man.
arghh...
i hope it's just a misunderstanding..

oh well, went to popular to buy my pens(coz tmr will be packed n crowded...)LOL.
bought myself markers too..xD
now i love orange...
wanted to buy purple de...
but then charlene said i already have one le, so might as well get the orange one..(:

speaking of charlene, she's gonna be back nxt mon!!
LOL. VERY GOOD. SHE CAN HELP CURE CHERYL OF HER "SICKNESS"..
lol. cheryl arhhs..

if u ever become a u-know-what, the first thing i'll do to u is that im so gonna kill u...:P
so u had better not horhhs...
and i dun think charlene will agree with that idea too...
haha.
guess she'll be freaking out bahh??

and and and, u must recover quickly horhhs(to cheryl.)
hahaha.
i want to eat ur crab!!!

oh YEAH, u cough somemore can eat CRAB MEHH??
:P

btw, hope ur arm's nt swollen anymore le..


lol. that reminds me..
she dk do what to cause her arm to become swollen during her nap yesterday...
lol.
similar to what i did too..
lol.

its like this;

i was in the midst of a nap, when i think i pulled my muscle or smth, when i was trying to straighten my left leg(we both also on the left de.)
then it was like, a sharp pain went through my leg, causing me to err.."roll about" in bed in pain.
worse still, it was just so painful that it woke me up.

and then the numbness came..
its like, i cant feel anything at all lahh..
even when its at night...

then todae morning while walking on the bridge, suddenly felt a sharp n throbbing pain at the area where my toes are...had to walk slower as a result..

then on the way to the bus-stop aft geog, the sides of my foot hurts..
its worse when i had to run to catch the stupid bus, otherwise need w8 for dk how long or smth...
then i pulled my muscle again...=.=

now its bit better but still hurts though...
lol. my other leg n my arms too...

so its like all my four limbs?? lol..
haiz...
i've got lots of old injuries n sprains....hais...

oh well, gotta go sleep..

just tired of well, waiting.


ahhs...
think its gonna be my turn to fall sick soon...
keep sneezing; and my throat's...
oh well...

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haiz..
i'm seriously dead beat...
frm buying charlene's present to...
nvm.

i'm falling asleep any moment soon...
guess it wun be hard to sleep once my head hits the pillow.
haiz...

im just so frustrated with myself.
and i guess im gonna start learning nt to sigh anymore.

my revision.
i'll just die
this week had kept me all busy with the buying of presents
i haven done any yet.
wth.

i hate myself.
the stupid me.
for my brain's clogged and freezed right now.
stupid, stupid me.



it'll be a long, long day tmr.