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haish...
i agree totally with this.

talking on msn now with meiqian.
we are now like talking back about our past tgt and comparing that with all present life.

and it all turns out that we both share the same sentiments...
we aren't really as happy as we might seem after all...

haish.
we were like telling each other how much we missed us being tgt as a clique.
not like now, where we are all starting to drift apart from each other le.

haish.
and comparing with now, though we got our clique, but seriously , we still miss those times.

and for me,
i feel super sadd now.
its like, sometimes i really feel as though i cant blend in with the rest of my 306 friends.

to be honest, most of the times, i feel left out and alone.
and even if im not, we all dont seem like a clique--we always hang out in pairs, hardly as one...

haish...
dunno why but suddenly i just started crying as i type now...

its like,
i feel really very terrible inside--it seems hard for me to find someone to confide in now...
not like back then...
where i have us tgt and all...

seriously...
there really isn't anyone...
and now i feel as though im gonna die..
its really hard and painful to bottle everything up...

but even if i wanted to tell someone about everything, we will hear?
we all are like starting to drift apart le.

seriously, who can be there for me when i need a listener.

im really tired of being someone else's listener ; but where's mine when i need it so badly?

haish...

my tears are just uncontrollable ; they just keep falling.

and i guess that i'll be crying myself to sleep again tonight...