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dunno why, but i'm hurting inside right now.

we aren't the way we used to be anymore.

nowadays, u'l always give me that nonchalant look and ignore me.
its not that i've never tried to talk to you.
but u just simply dao me.

to be simple, u're even harder to communicate with right now.
u're no longer the agnes chua that i used to know.

its like, why have we both turned out this way?
if i have any faults or smth, tell me.
i'll change.

trust me.
i'll do whatever it takes for us to be back to square one.

seriously.
i do miss the times we had everything under the sun to talk about.
i miss the times when we quarrel.
at least, quarreling is better than speaking nothing, isnt it?

all that's left inside of us are nothing but empty shells.
i dont want this; i want us both with our souls there.

can we?
perhaps,

perhaps this will be my 15th birthday wish this year.
im entitled to 3, arent i?


i cant go on anymore le.
call me a crybaby or whatever.

coz i know that if i continue to go on,
i'll be tearing all over again.
-and it'll be endless, trust me.


many a times i've cried myself to sleep.
all because of my endless tears ; they just wouldn't stop no matter what.

seriously, my dearest 老公，
i really miss us being together.