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many a times i really do feel like giving up.

giving up not because i dont have the motivation to strive and do well, but instead, its because of the failure which i am afraid to face.



maybe no one can understand how i feel..
maybe i am destined to be a loner..
maybe..
maybe...
maybe i should really keep it all to myself and bottle everything up.....



but, i dont feel good..

in fact, sometimes i really do feel that i cant breathe with all the stress and everything.


and its not that my tears are all dried up..
its because, u haven't seen me crying as i'm typing this.



thats why i say, that no one really knows me that well.

i know no matter how much i tried to conceal my real self, it'll still show at times, the vulnerable side of me, trying, and really acting as though i'm being strong here when its just on the contrary.



u know what?

i'm really scared that i wont be able to take in sooner or later.
i'm afraid that i'll collapse.

and i'm even afraid of the disappointment in myself.

but, like who really knows that?

to tell the truth, i'm all alone.